I Love Tata. / Markie Maldonado (grandson) Now that your in heaven, if that's a great place and if they have computers please send me a letter please tata. Please ask God to take care of you, like you took care of us. love screwy louie
To My DADDY, / FELICIA MONTANO (DAUGHTER)
I miss you so much, not one day goes by that I don't think of you or that terrible day... We try to remember the good times, but that day is what comes to mind when we do... We try to make things good for the kids, we try to make their lives easier. Only our family knows the love you gave all our kids, all were loved the same, you never chose one over the other... All the kids miss you... Dad, I will never forget you, I will never forget what you have done for me. We were a family, we had a bond, now we have lost you and we dont know where to go from there? What keeps me from the terror and pain is to remember how much you loved me, and I know you are watching over our family, the whole family and that is what keeps us from going nuts... Just knowing that your spirit is still with us. I love you Dad.. I miss you so much... Love, Fefe... 7-30-05
My father / Jennifer Montano (daughter) I honestly dont know where to began, there's so much to say! He was the best and most honest person that I knew , loved,and cherished.I am proud to say he was My Father! He was a great man, wonderful grandfather he loved his kids and grandsons with all of his heart, it was very obvious.The one thing I remember is when I was younger on the weekend when he did not have to work, he would work around the house with his music as loud as he wanted of course we did not mind we actually like his rock-n-roll, even when though we made comments about it.The one thing I regret is my 1and ahalf year old son, Gabriel won't experience the love of hanging out with his grandfather, or hear about all the deers he caught, or be able to go on hunting trips. He won't grow up without knowing what a great man his grandfather was ! I remember the day after I had Gabriel . My dad came to see us in the hospital as soon as he walked thru the door his face lit up with pride.He was a little shy to hold him, it didnt take him long to embrace his fifth grandson with the love and tenderness that hid under that tough exterior.I know he was proud you could see it in his face, and I will never forget that moment in my life. I love and miss him very much he will never be forgotten in my lifetime or my sons! Love, Jennifer
My dad and friend / Javier Montano (son) There is too much to say about my dad that I dont know where to begin. My father was one of maaaany thing's. He was an avid hunter who knew what he was doing. I would go with him each chance that came. Every time I went, he would never return empty handed, he always had his trophy. He was also a loving husband and father who put his family first. I knew him 16 years and the pain I feel is enormus. he was a loving brother, nephew, uncle, cousin, and beloved son. he may be gone physically but he is with us in spirit and in our hearts.
My Dad / Jessica Montano (daughter) My dad Estevan was the greatest man ever. He was always there to help me to achieve my goals. To me my dad was the one person whom I wanted to impress. I honestly believe the reason I graduated High School was because it meant a great deal to my mom and dad. At an early age I got pregnant, which to me was a let down to my mom and dad, but I will never forget the words my dad told me "You are going to finish school, and I will be there for you, to help you". My dad was always there to help. He kept his promise. He loved my son to death. My son was only 2 when my dad was taken from us but to this day I will never let my son forget the times he had with his Tata Estevan. My son Jr. remembers the times he and his tata would fight over who was going to kiss nana, or even that tata was not aloud to kiss her. Even now I can just imagine fights my son and his tata would have had over who would watch tv first, or whose spot on the bed is whose. Every one who knew my dad has nothing bad to say, he was an excellent father and friend to all his children. I will never forget my dad and know someday we will all be together again, a family.
ALMOST 3 YEARS / JESSICA MONTANO (DAUGHTER)Read >>
ALMOST 3 YEARS / JESSICA MONTANO (DAUGHTER)
ALMOST THREE YEARS HAVE COME AND GONE, I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING JUST TO HAVE YOU HERE WITH US. JR PRAYS TO YOU AT NIGHT WHEN HE SAYS HIS PRAYERS, AND EVERYTIME HE SEES YOUR PICTURE HE SAYS WHERE TATA AND I EXPLAIN TO HIM THAT YOU ARE A STAR IN THE SKY AND YOU HEAR AND SEE US BUT WE CANT SEE YOU, HE ALWAYS SAYS HE MISSES YOU AND I TRY AND REMIND HIM OF THE TIME YOU GUYS SPENT TOGETHER BUT HE SAYS I CANT REMEMBER, THAT BREAKS MY HEART BUT WE HAVE PICTURES TO SHOW HIM. JESSE THE BABY SEES PICTURES OF YOU AND SAYS TATA. ITS SAD THAT HE WOULD HAVE NEVER GOT TO MEET YOU, EVERYONE SAYS YOU WOULD HAVE LOVE THE WAY HES ALWAYS EATING, YOU WOULD HAVE HAD A LOT IN COMMON. I MISS YOU SO MUCH- I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING JUST TO HAVE YOU WITH US, LOVE YOU DADDY. <a href="http://www.commentyou.com"><img src="http://s7.photobucket.com/albums/y297/PGZ/commentu/father_mother/images/In_memory_dad.gif" alt="CommentYou.com is your One Stop Shop" border="0" ></a><br /><a style="padding:3px;background:#000;color:#00A DEF;font-family:tahoma;font-size:8px;font-weight:bold;text-decoration:none;border:3px double #00ADEF" href="http://www.CommentYou.com" target="_blank">Get More at COMMENTYOU.com</a> Close
MISS YOU / JENNIFER MONTANO (DAUGHTER) I MISS YOU VERY MUCH, IT'S BEEN A WHILE BUT EVERY TIME I GET ON THE WEBSITE, I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO FIND THE WORDS, THAT I HAVEN'T ALREADY SAID SO MANY TIMES SAID MY PRAYERS, MY MIND , AND MY DREAMS. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!! IN ONE MONTH YOUR GONNA BE 47 YEARS OLD, AND I CANT TEASE YOU! "I KNOW YOUR UP THERE LOOKING DOWN ON US ALL''! BABY JESSE IS GETTING SO BIG, HE LOOKS LIKE A BUTTERBALL, JUNIOR IS GETTING TALLER AND SMARTER,AND FELICIA BOYS , WELL YOU KNOW, IM JUST JOKING ,MARKS GETTING TALL , AND SMART TOO, HE'S VERY QUICK ON HIS COME BACKS, HE'S FUNNY, ANTHONYS ABOUT TALL AS MARK, BUT ANTHONY CAN ARGUE HIS CASE HE'S PRETTY SMART TOO, AND NICKY WELL HE'S LIKE A MINI-ME JAVI HE SMART BUT HE DOSN'T LIKE TO WEAR CLOTHES ONLY HIS UNDER WEAR AT THIS AGE?? BABY GABRIEL, HE GETTING TALL, HE GONNA BE 4 YEARS OLD IN A FEW MONTHS, HE ALREADY PLANS TO GO TO SCHOOL WITH HIS COUSINS SO HE CAN PLAY IN THE JUNGLE GYM?? WELL DAD I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU EVERY SINGLE DAY,!! Close
I MISS YOU SO MUCH, I WISH SO MUCH THIS JUST WASNT HOW MY LIFE WAS... I WISH U WERE HERE DAD. I WISH U NEVER WENT HUNTING... I WISH MOM WAS HERE.. I WISH I COULD GO SEE YOU. I WANNA BE WITH YOU DADDY. I FEEL LIKE I'M FAILING DAD, REAL BAD. I JUST WANNA BE THERE WITH YOU, I KNOW YOU WILL NEVER COME BACK TO ME OR MY SISTERS AND BROTHERS, BUT I CAN GO WITH YOU, AND I WANNA BE WITH YOU. I WISH MY DADDY WAS HERE SO I COULD TALK TO YOU. OR JUST TO KNOW YOU WERE AT HOME AT YOUR HOUSE AND IT WAS STILL OUR HOME, DAD MY HEART HURTS N I CRY FOR YOU EVERYDAY, I KNOW IT PROBABLY MAKES YOU SAD BUT DAD I MISS YOU, I WANT MY DAD BACK. MY KIDZ WANT THEIR TATA HOME WITH THEM. WHY DAD DID THIS HAPPEN, WHY?I TRY TO GO ON DAD I REALLY DO. BUT I JUST CANT HELP IT. I CANT ACCEPT YOU NOT BEING HERE. I CANT ACCEPT THE FACT THAT SOMEONE KILLED YOU. I CANT ACCEPT THAT I WILL SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITHOUT MY DAD. HOW DO I DO THIS? HOW DO I NOT MISS YOU DAD? HOW DO I NOT CRY FOR YOU? DADDY I WANT YOU HERE. I MISS YOU. DADDY COME HOME TO ME PLEASE COME HOME TO ME, PLEASE DAD. DAD I NEED YOU HERE TO HELP ME DO THIS CUZ I CANT, I CANT BE THE MOM MY KIDS NEED CUZ IM SO SAD ALL THE TIME AND ITS SO FRUSTRATING, WHY DID THEY DO THIS TO YOU DAD? WHY DID THEY DO THIS TO US? WHY DID THEY TAKE YOU AWAY FROM YOUR FAMILY. EVERYDAY I THINK WHAT IT WOULD BE LIKE TO BE THERE WITH YOU AND I GET SAD CUZ I CANT BE THERE WITH YOU. I WAKE UP IN THE MORNINGS SAD CUZ IM HERE AND UR STILL DEAD. WHY DID U HAVE TO DIE DAD? WHY? DADDY WHY DID THIS HAPPEN TO YOU? I MISS YO DAD. EVERYDAY, EVERY MINUTE DAD. I LOVE YOU DAD. I LOVE YOU, WE DIDNT SAY IT THAT MUCH LIKE WE SHOULD HAVE BUT I COULD SEE YOU JUST ONE MORE TIME DAD I PROMISE I WOULD TELL YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE AND MISS YOU, I WOULDNT LET YOU GO, DADY COME HOME TO ME! PLEASE DAD I NEED YOU BAD, I NEED YOU DAD. I NEED MY DAD. MY MOM IS GONE, SHE NOT HERE WITH US WHY DO WE HAVE TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU AND HER TOO!!!! THIS ISNT FAIR DAD AT ALL. IM SO ANGRY WITH THIS. I HATE THE PEOPLE WHO TOOK YOU AWAY FROM US, I HATE THE FACT THAT U WENT HUNTING THAT DAY, I HATE THE NIGHT I FOUND OUT YOU WERE MURDERED. I HATE THE MORNING I FOUND OUT YOU WERE MURDERED. I HATE IT SO MUCH AND ITS HURTING ME TO HATE IT! BUT I CANT HELP IT, THEY TOOK AWAY MY DAD, THEY TOOK YOU AWAY FROM ME, AND MY KIDS. THEY TOOK YOU FROM MY SISTERS AND MY BROTHERS, FROM NANA TATA, THE WHOLE FAMILY!!!! DADDY PLEASE COME HOME. PLEASE I WANT YOU HOME, I NEED YOU DAD. I LOVE YOU DAD I MISS YOU DAD DAD I LOVE YOU Close
Daddy, I'm sad. / Felicia Montano (Daughter)Read >>
Daddy, I'm sad. / Felicia Montano (Daughter)
hi dad i know it has been a while but i just cant find the words to say what i feel. i am so sad u r gone and i miss u so much dad, i cant help but feel a little angry that u r not here n e more, i feel so hurt dad that my kids r missing out on a wonderful tata. dad i miss u i dont know what else to say. im hurt dad cuz i miss u so much more then n e 1 and i can never have u back, i will never on this earth be able to hear u say FEFE or laugh when u scare me, or make fun of me dad. daddy i miss u. i want my dad back. i need my dad. i want my dad. or dad i will never be able to get mad at u for goin hunting, say how bad it is to do that that it is not right, then u would try n explain to me that it is what it is and it is ok, but u know me dad, i have to b stubborn cuz im always right, dad i want to be wrong n u still b alive, i want u to hold me and tell me "fefe everything is ok" daddy i still love u and i will forever miss you. come back to me dad, come back to all of us please. daddy i miss u, i miss u everyday all the time. for as long as i am alive i will remeber u and love u! Close
hi dad / Felicia Montano (Daughter)
daddy just wanted to say happy thanksgiving. i love and miss you dad and everyday i feel the same. the boys r missing u to dad. we dont have u hear and we dont have mom here. it is hard dad real hard and i know if u were here it would not be so hard. love you dad! Close
another holiday with out you / Jessica Montano (daughter)Read >>
another holiday with out you / Jessica Montano (daughter)
i cant believe its going to be our third thanksgiving and christmas with out you and now with out mom. i miss you so much, there is a lot going on and i just cant stop thinking about what you would be doing or how you would be handling thing. Jr is going to be 5 and everytime he sees your picture he says"oh i miss tata." he knows your watching down on us, Jesse is 8mos old and i just cant help but think about what you would do with him, every time someone looks at him he gets a big cheesy smile like you in one of your pictures. even though he has never met you he will know who hs tata estevan is through pictures, and our stories and memories. i miss you so much. i would have never thought any of us would be able to make it this far with out you, it hurt still but i know you are with us and are around still. miss you so much i wish we could have just one more holiday together all of us as a family again. love you. Close
HAPPY EASTER DAD / FELICIA MONTANO (DAUGHTER)Read >>
HAPPY EASTER DAD / FELICIA MONTANO (DAUGHTER)
I remember Daddy's hands folded silently in prayer and reaching out to hold me when I had a nightmare. You could read quite a story in the calluses and lines. Years of work and worry had left their mark behind.
I remember Daddy's hands, how they held my Mama tight and patted my back for something I'd done right. There are things I've forgotten that I loved about the man, but I'll always remember the love in Daddy's hands.
Daddy's hands were soft and kind when I was crying. Daddy's hands were hard as steel when I'd done wrong. Daddy's hands weren't always gentle, but I've come to understand, there was always love in Daddy's hands.
I remember Daddy's hands working 'til they bled, sacrificed unselfishly just to keep us all fed. If I could do things over, I'd live my life again, and never take for granted the love in Daddy's hands.
Daddy's hands were soft and kind when I was crying. Daddy's hands were hard as steel when I'd done wrong. Daddy's hands weren't always gentle, but I've come to understand, there was always love in Daddy's hands. Close
HELLO I THOUGHT I WOULD TAKE A MOMENT AND WRITE YOU. I WAS A LITTLE DOWN TODAY. I FELT THE COLD BREEZE. NOTHING WAS OPEN I KNOW IT WAS YOU!!!! I MISS YOU SO MUCH. DAD I WISH YOU WERE HERE TO SEE ALL THE THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED. ANTHONY GOT ANOTHER AWARD AT SCHOOL. IT IS FOR PRINCIPAL'S OUTSTANDING BEHAVIOR. DAD I AM SO PROUD OF HIM. MARK IS HAVING SOME TROUBLE HE IS NOW IN COUNSELING AT SCHOOL. HE SAYS THAT HE MISSES YOU AT SCHOOL BECAUSE HE REMEMBERS YOU PICKING HIM UP AND HE GETS SAD. BUT MR SOL IS HELPING HIM HE WRITES LETTERS TO YOU AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK. HE TRYS TO BE POSITIVE SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED TO HIM IN THESE LAST 2 YEARS AND ITS ALOT FOR AN 8 YEAR OLD. HE MISSES YOU DAD HE MISSES YOU A LOT. WE ALL DO. BUT WE ARE GOOD. THEY SAY TIME WILL HEAL THE PAIN THEY ARE LYING. IT DOESNT GET EASY. WE JUST DONT CRY AS MUCH. BUT WHEN WE LOOK IN THE PHOTOS OF YOU AND IT IS SO HARD BECAUSE WE CAN STILL HEAR YOUR LAUGH AND THEN WE HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT YOU ARE GONE. DAD WE ARE GOING TO KEEP YOUR MEMORY ALIVE NO MATTER WHAT NOONE CAN TAKE THAT AWAY FROM US YOU WILL ALWAYS BE OUR FATHER. DAD WE LOVE YOU ALWAYS XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX FEFE
love you / Jessica Montano (daughter)
Dad, I have been thinking a lot about you, i wish you were here with us, its going to be two years since you have been gone, at times it seems so long but other times it feels so fast. we are going up to the mountain on the 23rd of april. its kinda sad the way things have ended up everyone can safely say you were the glue that held the family together, us kids are trying to stick together its kinda hard when we have no parents to help us, for some people its easier to turn there backs and blame others rather than work things through. but oh well life goes on. i just wish everyday you were here with us. I better go dad, i love you. Close
i wish / Jessica Montano (daughter)
dad as i write this letter to you i fell like crying, i am so angry at what has happened. how could someone be so cruel, i fell like you have been betrayed. everything you have worked hard for, material stuff has been given away and not to someone in the family but to someone who has no right to have them. how could this happen, im so sorry. i wish there was something that can be done. i wish everyday that you were here. i wish that justice could be served for you it seems like you have been put on the back burner, the detectives arent doing anything it seems like to solve your case and on top of that a person that should have treasured you and your belongings doesnt care, stuff that you work hard for stuff to show what a hard worker you were is being given away, to people you wouldnt have wanted to have. you dad will never be forgotten, blood is thicker then water, i guess thats what made it easy for someone to do what has been done. i love you dad and i guess with the baby i have been thinking about you more wishing you were here with us. i have everything i could ask for except you, i wish you could comeback to us, what do you think people would say/do if you were to comeback? well dad the baby is getting hungry so i will write later. love you ALWAYS AND FOREVER (thats not just words its the truth) Close
Newest Grandson / Jessica Montano (Daughter)
Hi dad, i love and miss you. Jesse Alexander-Steven Gomez was born 3/2/06 @ 225 pm he weight 7lb 10 oz (double what jr weight). I wish you were here with us. Everything went well with the delivery, at times when i was scared or worried i would just think of you and remember how you were there with me when jr was born, and then i would calm down, i miss you so much. Jesse will know his tata estevan, jr will make sure of that. I remember when you would smirk with half a smile, like only move one side of your mouth up, everytime the baby does that i cant help but think of you and think of the way you used to talk to the kids when they were babies. Well dad i will write again later, i love you. Close
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