Sorry for your loss..  / Cassandra Hyatt (Someone that has lost a brother )

Thank you for visiting my brothers page.  Danny Groves.  It is sad that we have come together for the same reason.  Both our loved ones did not have to be taken from us.  What keeps me going is that fact that I know Danny is in a better place.  So is your loved one.  May we find peace from these tragic events.  Know that they will light our path, they will watch over us.
Best regards
Cassandra

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WHY / Darlene Montano (wife)
Steve I sit here everyday wondering what am I going to do without you. I look at your pictures and think about 25 years of our life. So much to remember and yet I won't have new memories. That really hurts me Steve because we were suppose to have a lifetime of memories and now my final memory is you of lying on the ground. I could'nt help you (partners are suppose to help eachother ) I feel like I let you down. I know you would tell me I am being silly, but in my saddest moments thats how I feel. I can't look at the grandkids without thinking what your reaction would be, to the crazy things they say and do. They miss you Steve each one in their own way. I see alot of you in Javier, he tries to be tough but just like you he is just a big teddy bear with a heart of gold. Tommarrow Steve I will be at the mountain with everyone else to hear kind things about you and to talk about you and I am saddend by the fact that the ones responsible for your death and our grief still lives on. I pray to God everyday that they catch those evil heartless maniacs. 8-26-05 Close

My Heart Aches for You  / Katherine Westmoland (visitor)
Darlene & Family,

My heart aches for your loss.  How hard this year must have been.  Only someone who has suffered this kind of loss could probably understand.  I have not, but my heart reaches out to you all with sympathy and prayers for comfort and peace for you.  I hope one day you will have the answers you want so much. 

In the meantime, I am sure Steve would want you to all go forward and build happy and fulfilling lives, while cherishing the wonderful memories I can tell you all share of him.


You will be in my prayers for many days to come, but especially during this next week as you mark off one year of sorrow and loss.

Darlene visited my sweet little grand daughter's site, Sarah Faith Schmidt, whom we lost so suddenly this summer to complications from a near drowning.  Thank you for your words of comfort and understanding.

No matter how safe we think we or our children are, we just do not know what the next minute can bring.  Hold tight to eachother with, love and understanding and Faith that the Lord God, our final judge knows who took Steve from you and His justice will prevail.

God bless you and be with you all, especially over these next difficult days.  You will be thought of and prayed for in Wichita, Kansas.

With deepest condolences,
Katherine Westmoland
(Sarah Faith Schmidt's Mema/Grandma)
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I MISS YOU  / FELICIA MONTANO (DAUGHTER)
DAD
 IT HAS BEEN A YEAR ALREADY. IT WENT BY SO FAST. WE ARE STILL HURTING FOR YOU. I MISS YOU. I WISH YOU WERE HERE TO SEE ALL THE THINGS HAPPENING. I KNOW THAT YOU SEE HOW OUR LIVES HAVE BEEN PROGRESSING, BUT WE WANT YOU HERE. WE WANT YOU TO BE HERE SO WE CAN SEE YOU. SO WE CAN LAUGH AT YOU, OR LAUGH ABOUT WHAT YOU SEEN US DO. OUR KIDS MISS YOU. MOM MISSES YOU. DAD WE NEED YOU; I KNOW THAT WILL NOT BRING YOU BACK, I'VE FACED REALITY, I KNOW YOU WILL NEVER BE HERE IN PERSON. I KNOW THAT WE CAN NEVER TELL MOM "TELL DAD FOR ME" AND WE WILL NEVER HEAR HER SAY "NO YOU TELL HIM"  WHEN WE GO OVER I HAVE TO EXPLAIN TO NICKY THAT YOU ARE IN HEAVEN. HOW DO I TELL HIM. HE LOVES YOU DAD.. WHEN HE SEES A PICTURE OFYOU HE GETS SO EXCITED, BUT THEN SAYS TATA DIED. IT BREAKS MY HEART. MARK UNDERSTANDS, BUT HE STILL HURTS. IF A SAD SONG COMES ON AND IT DOESNT MATTER WHICH ON HE JUST LOOKS OUT THE WINDOW WITH THE SADDEST LOOK. AND I KNOW WHAT HE IS THINKING BUT I DONT WANT TO SAY ANYTHING BECAUSE HE WILL CRY AND THEN I WILL CRY. I HAVE TO TELL MY KIDS THAT EVERYTHING WILL BE OK, BUT HOW DO I DO THAT WHEN YOU WENT ON A SIMPLE HUNTING TRIP, AND YOU WERE MURDERED. HOW DO I TELL MY 3 BOYS ITS SAFE. HOW DO I KEEP THEM SAFE. IT IS SO SCARRY. DAD YOU HAVE BEEN HUNTING FOR EVER AT THOSE SAME MOUNTAINS AND THIS HAPPENED.  ANTHONY SAYS HE IS GOING HUNTING NEXT WEEKEND. I TELL HIM WE CANT HE SAID IF TATA WAS HERE HE WOULD TAKE ME. WHAT DO I SAY TO THAT. MARK WANTS TO KNOW IF WE CAN GO CAMPING UP THERE. I SAY NO WE CANT GO ITS NOT SAFE, HE SAID JUST TAKE THE CAMPER TATA GAVE US AND WE WILL BE OK. BUT WE WONT. WE DONT KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN DAD AND IT IS SO SCARRY.  I WANT MY DAD BACK!!!!! EVERY DAY I THINK ABOUT WHAT IT WOULD BE LIKE TO GO TO YOUR HOUSE AND YOU BE HOME.  IN MY MIND YOU WOULD SAY SORRY GUYS BUT EVERYTHING IS OK NOW I AM HOME. WHAT I  WOULDNT GIVE TO HEAR YOU ONE MORE TIME. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. MORE THAN I THOUGHT I EVER WOULD. MY HEART HURTS SO BAD. PEOPLE ASK HOW WE ARE DOING I SAY WE ARE OK AND DOING GOOD, AND THEY SAY I DONT KNOW WHAT I WOULD HAVE DONE IF THIS HAPPENED TO ME. ALL I DO IS LOOK AT THEM AND TELL THEM NOT TO EVEN THINK THAT WAY.. IT COULD HAPPEN TO ANYONE. AND ALL THE WHILE MY HEART IS BREAKING BECAUSE I DONT KNOW WHAT I AM DOING!!! ALL OF US DAD NOT ONE DAY GOES BY THAT YOU DONT COME UP, IT DOESNT MATTER WHAT WE TALK ABOUT. DAD WHY DID YOU HAVE TO GO. WHY DIDNT YOU STAY????   NOT JUST US DAD BUT FOR MARK, ANTHONY, NICKY, JR AND GABRIEL. WHY DAD.. I AM SO HURT AND IS IT SO SELFISH THAT I WANT YOU TO BE HERE NOT IN SPIRIT IN BODY, IN LIFE. DAD  I WANT YOU TO COME HOME. WE ALL DO. DAD WE NEED YOU MAYBE MORE THAN YOU REALIZED. BUT I HOPE YOU KNEW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU, HOW MUCH WE ALL NEED AND LOVE YOU. DAD I LOVE YOU... I CANT WAIT FOR  THE DAY WE ARE ALL TOGETHER AGAIN. LOVE ALWAYS YOUR DAUGHTER FEFE


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Thursday / Jessica Montano (daughter)
Dad, This thursday last year (8/26/04) was the last day you were seen alive. I wasn't even worried about you going hunting. Last night Jr, Sal and I were watching T.V. and about 10 big Deer were around a car and Me and Sal were joking saying " You would go crazy if you were in the car, you would be trying to fiqure out which one was the biggest", that made me sad but whats worse is Jr said "Tatas bringing me one of those". He doesn't understand your not coming home, hes still waiting patiently for you. That hurts. We love and miss you lots. I can't belive we have been without you for a year. Your memory will never be taken from us. Close

Chain of Comfort  / Ann Reeves
  So very sorry for your loss of your husband, father, grandpa, son and friend. I hope you are able to find answers, and if not that God will give you comfort.
   Please join us the 1st of every month for the Chain of Comfort at 10:00 pm. We will all light a candle for our loved one who has passed on, and say a prayer for comfort for one another. We hope to bombard Heaven with prayer. We did this in August and it is comforting and I felt a strong bond with all those who participated. You may pass this on to friends and family . The more prayers the better.
Hope you will be here September 1st at 10:00 pm.
           God bless you,
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Thank you  / Sherry Kimbler (None)
Thank you for lighting a candle for my son, Nicholas Floriana's birthday.  With all you have going on, that was an extremely kind gesture and we appreciate it deeply.  I know I have been to Estevan's site before and was horrified that a man going hunting could die at the hands of a murderer.   I just showed this site to my husband and his response was "My God!"  He is an avid hunter and said that he is always afraid that one of the kids will be harmed when they go hunting with him.  I cannot express how sorry we are for your great loss.  Again, thank you for touching our lives by lighting a candle for Nick.  God Bless! Close

So Close  / Darlene Montano (wife)
It is getting so close to saturday. I am so worried. I dont want to face it. It only proves that you are truly gone. It means that your last days alive home with me are almost gone. Steve I am so sorry for what you went thru. I hate them so much. I wish them so much harm for what they did to you. I am so alone without you. Please be with me next saturday. I will really need you. You are my everything Steve. I dont know how to go on without you. This whole past year is just a blurr. I love you. I always knew without you my life would be empty and sad. I was right. I need you . Forever Your Darlin Close

A Beautiful Family  / Amber Smith (passerby)

Darlene, thanks for the nice words.  My nephew Eric Contreras, Jr passed away in June.  You did beautifully on the website and all.  I am so sorry for your loss, our father died when we were only 15, 10, and 8 years old back in 1992.  To all of you who have lost a father, know that you were lucky to have him so long, please.  And to all those who lost a grandfather, please tell them how lucky they were to be so close with him.  It brought tears to my eyes reading the candles from Grandbabies to Tata.  God Bless All Of You!

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Hey Dad  / Jessica Montano (daughter)
Hey Dad,
Just wanted to write and let you know how I'm doing. This is my last month in school. I go on Aug 23, to a meeting to see where I start my externship for pharmacy technician. I really like the class and I'm sure I will like my job. It pays really good. Im one step closer to becoming a neurologist. We plan to go up to the mountain on Aug, 27. It is going to be really hard. Jr misses you alot. The other night I had a dream about you. Me and Felicia were crying because Jr was sick and needed to go to the hospital, You were telling me to stop crying nothing was wrong and the next thing I remember is I woke up and Jr was sleeping next to me. Its like you were telling me it was a dream and to stop thinking like that. I know you are around us. But I still miss you. I have to go to bed now. Love you. Close

HI DAD  / FELICIA MONTANO (DAUGHTER)
Hi Dad.
 
Mark and Anthony start school tomorrow. Anthony will be in kinder and Mark is going to 2nd. I wish you were here to see. I am so scared for them. But I know it is good for them. I have butterflies, you know. Anthony is my baby, and now he is going to school. They are getting so big. We wish you were here to go thru these days with us. I know that I would still feel worried for my boys, but I wouldn't have your death there. I know that you would be so excited. I can hear you with your laugh. I miss you dad. I am so sad that you are not here, not just for my boys going to school, but for the everyday things. Like I got a promotion at work, I've only been there 2 months. They already moved me up, I know that you would have been proud of me. I could hear you say "Good job". What I wouldn't give to hear you say that to me again. I miss your laugh, I miss your hugs even though they weren't on a daily basis we still knew that you loved us, I know that even though we didn't say "I love you" to eachother everyday, we knew. It has been the hardest year, even harder month, this year went by so fast. it was like we celebrated your anniversary yesterday, and now we are going to have a memorial for your death, another date to remember, just not a good one. We try to make the best, but it is so hard. We have to wake up in the morning and pretend like we are happy, we go shopping like everything is ok, but it is not. The days just are not happy no matter what. If we go out to eat, we remember, hey dad likes that or dad like to go there. we tried going to Golden Corral. It just wasn't the same. Remember when we went there for that Valentines day and we gave you those gifts. You were so embarrased. But it was cool. I know that we didnt have those days as often as maybe we should have but those days are what we try to think about when we are crying and sad. But to be honest dad it makes me cry even more. I miss you.. love always your FEFE Close

Saturday / Darlene Montano (wife)
   Steve I think saturdays (especially the morning) are one of the hardest times for me.I'm not sure why.Maybe its a feeling that this is the day of the week you were murdered,of course we don't know what time or what day it happend. We don't know anything except that your gone.That you were murdered. That we don't know how long you laid on that mountain. We need God to please help us. Liberty and Justice for all (when) Steve will you get your Justice. I cannot wait unill those responsible pay for what they did to you or to us. Steve I miss you and I Love you and I need you. No one knows how much I want to be back by your side . To be the couple we were. To have someone to talk to without judgement. To be happy with or mad with.To feel the unconditional Love we shared.I am really having a hard time without you. I never imagined my life without you now I am forced to. .
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I AM SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  / UNKNOWN
ALL MY PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU. I HOPE THAT YOU CONTINUE TO BE STRONG FOR THE SAKE OF YOUR FAMILY.. MAY GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU. I HOPE THAT ONE DAY YOU RECEIVE JUSTICE FOR THE FAMILY. BUT UNTILL THEN MAY ALL THE LOVE AND MEMORIES THAT YOU TO SHARED AS HUSBAND AND WIFE AND WITH CHILDREN BE CHERISHED FOR ALL ETERNITY. MY PRAYERS AND WISHES ARE TO THE WHOLE MONTANO FAMILY. WITH LOTS OF LOVE..   Close

TO TATA STEVE  / YDILLA DUARTE

  TATA I MISS YOU . I ALWAYS LIKED TO TALK TO YOU BECAUSE YOU MADE ME LAUGH.

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MY DAD  / FELICIA MONTANO (DAUGHTER)
I JUST WANTED TO SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU DAD. I DIDNT FORGET I LIT YOU A CANDLE. WE MISS YOU EVERY DAY, WE KNOW THAT YOU ARE WATCHING US.  I MISS YOU.TODAY IS A BIG MONTH FOR US.. YOUR MEMORIAL IS COMING WE ARE GOING TO THE MOUNTAIN TO HAVE A MEMORIAL, BUT EVERYONE WISHES THAT WE COULD HAVE THROWN YOU A BIRTHDAY PARTY, I KNOW YOU PROBABLY WOULD NOT HAVE CAME, BUT WE WOULD NOT HAVE TOLD YOU. I KNOW THAT I SPEAK FOR OUR FAMILY WHEN I SAY THIS... I MISS YOU DAD, IT MAKES ME SAD WHEN I THINK ABOUT YOU, BUT I DONT WANT TO FORGET... I CAN STILL REMEBER THE LOOKS YOU GAVE US, AND YOUR LAUGH. THAT SILLY LAUGH. EVEN THE LOOK LIKE DONT DO THAT.. I MISS THEM ALL. I THINK ABOUT YOU SO MUCH THAT I DREAM THAT YOU ARE ALIVE.. IN MY DREAMS I FIND YOU, AND WE GO TO SEE YOU AND YOU TELL US EVERYTHING IS OK. AND I WAKE UP EXCITED BUT QUICKLY LEARN THAT IT IS A DREAM. IT IS SO DEVASTATING. I WANT TO BE THERE SO MUCH WITH YOU... I KNOW IT IS SILLY, AND THAT I STILL HAVE THINGS TO GET DONE, BUT I FEEL HAPPY TO KNOW THAT ONE DAY I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN AND I WILL FEEL THE HUGS, AND SEE THE LOOK, AND HEAR YOU LAUGH AT ME. MAYBE YOU CAN SCARE ME LIKE THE OLD DAYS... BYE DAD.   FEFE

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