may god be with you / Kayli Plotner (none) dear darlene, i was so touched when i read steves story. you visited my father's website and id like to thank you for your sympathy. i was 11 when my dad died , now at thirteen anychance i get to talk about him i love it. as for you and your family, just tell them to stay with god and all will get better. hey if i was ready to accept my dads accident the day after and realize he was in the best place in the entire universe with god, it made it so much easier let me tell you. but it wasnt easy for my little 9 year old ( now 11) brother so i hope all of you the best and i would like to keep in touch with you, god bless kayli plotner
HI DAD! WE LOVE YOU / FELICIA MONTANO (DAUGHTER) HI DAD NOONE CAN EVER TAKE AWAY THE FACT THAT YOU WERE OUR FATHER AWAY FROM US. WE ALL ARE TERRIFIED AT THE FACT THAT YOU WILL NEVER BE HERE IN BODY, BUT WE BELIEVE YOU ARE HERE IN SPIRIT, LIKE JJ SAYS EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON BUT I THINK THAT THERE IS NO REASON FOR YOU TO HAVE BEEN KILLED AND I DONT AND WONT EVER UNDERSTAND WHY. THERE IS NO EXCUSE BUT LIKE JJ I FEEL HAPPY THAT YOU ARE NOT FEELING THE SAME PAIN WE ARE FEELING NOT JUST YOUR DEATH BUT OUR REALITY, AND WHAT IS HAPPENING NOW. I KNOW YOU WOULD ALWAYS BE THERE FOR US AND EVERYDAY WE ALL KNOW THAT YOU ARE WATCHING FOR US AND TAKING CARE OF US. DADDY, THINGS ARE DIFFERENT AND THE REALITY OF IT REALLY HURTS REAL BAD. BUT WE WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND WE KNOW IF YOU HAD ANY CHOICE YOU WOULD BE HERE YOU WOULD NOT HAVE CHOSEN TO GO WITHOUT US, AND YOU WOULD HAVE DONE EVERYTHING YOU COULD TO BE WITH US, WE ALL KNOW YOU WOULD NOT HAVE LEFT US HERE INTENTIONALLY. AND WE WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THE LOVE YOU WILL STAY ALIVE FOR AS LONG AS WE ARE ALIVE AND OUR KIDS AND THEIR KIDS YOU WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED. I KNOW I SPEAK FOR MY SISTERS AND BROTHERS AND TIA'S TIO'S AND NANA AND TATA WE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU DEARLY. UNTILL WE SEE YOU AGAIN. WATCH OVER US TAKE CARE OF US.
Miss You / Jessica Montano (Daughter) Dad, Jr is getting so big, he is 4 now. When you died he was only 2 years old. I cant belive how much things have changed, but i guess things happen for a reason. I think if you were here still things would have still happened, im just glad that you can never be hurt by any thing any more Im not just talking about headache. No matter what, I know that our love for you would never be forgotten. Every thing you have given me/us can never be replaced. I love you so much. I hope alls well with you, and i miss you and hope you find happiness.
DADDY, I MISS YOU SO MUCH / FELICIA MONTANO (DAUGHTER) DAD I MISS YOU SO MUCH. I KEEP THINKING ABOUT YOU AND HOW THINGS WOULD BE IF YOU WERE STILL HERE, MAYBE THINGS WOULD BE A LITTLE BETTER. I MISS YOU, WE ALL DO. I AM SO SAD AND TONIGHT I WAS SITTING OUTSIDE JUST THINKING AND OF ALL THE STARS IN THE SKY, I SAW THE LITTLE ON THAT LOOKED LIKE IT WAS BLINKING AND I JUST FELT YOU AND AT THAT MOMENT I HEARD YOU SAY DONT WORRY FEFE ITS OK. MAYBE IT WAS JUST ME BECAUSE I KNOW WHAT YOU WOULD SAY BUT FOR THAT LITTLE MOMENT I HAD HOPE. I DONT KNOW WHERE I AM GOING. I DONT KNOW WHAT I AM DOING. I KEEP THINKING THAT I WANT TO BE WITH YOU. BUT MY BOYS. THEY NEED ME AND I DONT WANT THEM CRYING FOR ME THE WAY I CRY FOR YOU. I CANT DO THAT TO THEM BUT DAD THIS IS SO HARD. I AM PRETENDING TO MY KIDS THAT EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT AND IT IS NOT. WHAT IS THAT TEACHING THEM. DADDY I DONT WANT TO FAIL THEM, I FEEL THAT IS WHAT I AM DOING. AND IT HURTS SO MUCH I FEEL LIKE I CANT BREATHE, MY WORLD IS SPINNING AND I CANT GET UP. I HAVE NO CONTROL OF WHAT IS GOING ON AND I FEEL SO HOPELESSI DONT KNOW WHAT YOU WOULD BE ABLE TO DO BUT STILL I MISS YOU AND I WISH WITH EVERYTHING I HAD THAT YOU WERE HERE.
HI TATA / MARK MALDONADO (GRANDSON) I MISS YOU TATA AND MOM SAYS I WILL BE ABLE TO BE WITH YOU ONE DAY. NOT REAL SOON BUT SOON. I WRITE YOU NOTES AT SCHOOL DID YOU GET THEM. LOVE YOU
Changes/ Darlene Montano (Wife)
Things are so different then they were in August of 2004. We as a family are different. Our destiny has changed. I know in my heart that any good that happens in my life would make you happy. We all have had alot of things we have had to come to terms with. How we dealt with any given situation was neither wrong nor a reason to be judged. I havent felt like myself or been who I was on August 25, 2004. And I never will be. But life has changed some good some bad, but you go forward always. I Love You and Miss You and I am greatful for the times we had. Darlene Close
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEARS 2006 / FELICIA MONTANO (DAUGHTER)Read >>
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEARS 2006 / FELICIA MONTANO (DAUGHTER)
WE ARE NOW CELEBRATING CHRISTMAS # 2 WITHOUT YOU. IT HURTS SO BAD, I DONT WANT TO TALK TO ANYONE. I DONT WANT TO BE PART OF THIS WORLD THAT IS SO TERRIBLE, I WANT TO BE WITH YOU. I KNOW YOU ARE HAPPY AND EVERYTHING IS GOOD, I WANT TO BE THERE WITH YOU AND BE HAPPY, I DONT WANT TO BE SAD DAD AND I KNOW THAT IT IS NOT SOLELY BECAUSE YOU ARE GONE BUT I KNOW I WOULDNT FEEL THIS SAD IF YOU WERE HERE. I MISS YOU DAD AND I CANT HELP IT. I HAVE NOT FORGOT YOU, I HAVE NOT FORGOT THE LAUGHS THAT WERE THERE. I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU NEITHER WILL MY KIDS THEY WILL ALWAYS KNOW WHAT A GREAT TATA YOU WERE! MARK'S HAVING NIGHTMARES ABOUT GOING TO THE PARK WITH HIS FRIENDS AND THEY GET KILLED HE SAYS HE SAW THE PERSON THAT KILLS HIM IN HIS DREAM, DAD HELP HIM PLEASE TO BE SAFE, TAKE CARE OF HIM WHEN HE SLEEPS PLEASE. I LOVE YOU DAD AND I MISS YOU TERRIBLY MY HEART HURTS SO MUCH AND I DONT WANT TO FEEL THIS PAIN ANYMORE! DAD I LOVE YOU Close
MARRY XMAS TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY / SELMA FLYNN Read >>
MARRY XMAS TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY / SELMA FLYNN Close
Miss You / Darlene Montano (Wife)
Well Steve here it is again another holiday another moment another day all without you. I miss you and am truly trying to go on It is not as easy as the outside makes it look Steve. I Miss You and I Love You. Darlene Close
Hi Dad, I know it has been a long time. It just hurts so bad. Last year went so fast and there was no time to think. What do we do? What do I do? Everyday it hurts and it hurts bad. Things are not good. I miss you dad! The kids miss you. I stop to think what are you doing right now, where are you? Why are you gone?? Why? Why did this happen? I know that this is probably not fair but I want to know why this happened to you. I don’t think this should have happened. I miss you dad and I don’t know how to move on. Sure I feel happy at times and things do go well but I am losing it dad. I feel like I have no control left of my life. I go to work and I cant remember how to do what I have been doing for months. I wish that all this was not real. I wish August 29th 2004 had never happened I hate that day with everything I have. I know that is not the specific day you died. But I still hate that day, till I know exactly what day you died that day I will continue to hate. I wish I didn’t take the kids bowling I wish that wasn’t more important, because if I would have known Dad I would not have went, I would have went with Mom, JJ, Sal and George, I would have been able to see for myself and say good bye. That eats me up every day. Not one day goes by that I don’t get mad at my self and I know everyone says that there was a reason I didn’t go but it doesn’t matter! You are my father I should have went, just to see for myself that you were ok. Even though you weren’t, I should have went. Dad and I relive that anger everyday I cant make it go away. Deep down I know why I didn’t go. I think I was worried but too the kids had been looking forward to the competition, and when no one showed that was my sign that I should have gone home! But dad I didn’t. I stayed and the kids bowled. Why didn’t I go home? Dad why didn’t I go home! Why didn’t I go with mom and them to see you. It doesn’t feel real to me at times because I think if I would have went I would have been able to see you. I would have seen you dead and I would not be able to deny what I seen. But I didn’t and I think one day; you my dad who everyone says is gone and dead, the same man that raised me and my siblings is dead, that man that we had a funeral for; will come home and say “You guys are so silly, I am home and everything is going to be ok!!” everything will be ok. But then my heart breaks a little more dad because it aint gonna happen. That is never gonna happen. You are never coming home, dad I cant deal with that. Daddy, I want you back. I want you to come home. I don’t want you dead. I want the ashes out of your house and I want to come over and see you laying in bed. I want you home. I want to hear your say Hey Fefe. Or call out Screwy Louie. Call Anthony, Antonio. And Nicky Nick. I want to hear the growl that you did. Or the grunts dad I want you home. I don’t know how much more I can take. I just want to be with you. I want you here, everything would go back to normal if you were here. I want our lives back!!!!! I want my Daddy back!!! That’s all. I love you Dad and I will forever miss you. Love Fefe 12/10/2005
miss you / Jessica Montano (daughter)
hi dad, im sorry i havent wrote to you in long time. i miss you so much. we are coming up on our second christmas without you, and i cant help but think what i would have gotten you for christmas, or what you would have had gotten us. (mom would have pick it out and you take the credit for) Jr is getting big he is going to be 4 years old in january and he wants a scooby doo party. He still remembers the times you guys would fight over everything. I dont really like him fighting/westleing with anyone because im afraid he'll get hurt and he tells me "tata stevan fights with me." We all miss you dad. I wish if I say it so many times you will come back to us. thats just wishfull thinking I know. Everything is fine with me. I went back to work at teletech so i can have money for xmas and jr birthday party, and after i have the baby i will apply at the pharmacys. This pregnancy is ok sofar. The dr said i need to drink more water at least a gallon, how the heck am i going to do that? But ill drink as much as i can. Everytime i go to the dr the baby sounds strong and healthy which is good. Dad I will write to you later. I hope everthing is well with you and like i said in my candle, i know you would be loving the weather, mom says it to cold but you know her if it under 100 degrees its cold if it over 100 degrees it warm. I love you and miss you. Close
Jessica/ Darlene Montano (wife)
Steve please give Jessica a little extra care. I am worried about her and this pregnancy. I dont know where I fit in this place anymore I am very uncomfortable with the posistion I have been placed. But I am afraid for her. She hasnt been feeling good and all the pressure she has to endure I know is as upsetting to you as it is for me. I know you see whats going on and I know you would be helping us all in your way to deal with this.Anyways Steve please just show Jess you are here for her. I Love You. Close
Steve/ Darlene Montano (Wife)
I just want to yell out your name and scream why you. I will never know. What right did they have to kill you and destroy my family. I cant stop the anger I feel I try to stay sane I am tired Steve of acting like it will be ok. It will never be ok. I miss you and without you how do I pretend it will ever get better? Its not just being alone Steve thats hard its being without you that I cant handle. And forever is a long time Steve and thats how long you will be away. I am tired Steve I want to smile again from my heart I just cant. My heart is broken and I dont know how to fix it. I LOVE YOU STEVE , Darlin. Close
FAITH/ Darlene Montano (wife)
Faith will become vision, hope will become possession, but the love of Jesus Christ that is stronger than death endures forever. In the end, it is the one thing you can hang onto. Close
Darlene! I know your birthday will not be the same without your wonderful husband. Please rest assured in knowing he is watching over you and your family. I wish all the Angel families could be together with you tomorrow to celebrate your birthday. I will have to be happy with giving you a "cyber" gift. Please know that Estevan, you and your family are all in my prayers. HUGS to all of you!
I'd like to wish Darlene a Happy Birthday for tomorrow. I would also like to wish the Montano family a Happy Thanksgiving. I know it is going to be a very lonely time of the year for all of us. Be together and get strength and support from one another.
My True Love / Darlene Montano (Wife)
Baby when I look at you You know it breaks my heart in two How beautiful you are I've seen you in a million dreams We will never be apart I wanna hold you forever That's all I'll ever need You are my love You are my life My heart and soul The truest friend I've ever known You are my world All of my dreams My fantasy, My reality I love everything you are Every time I close my eyes It hits me so deep inside How real this feeling is I'm intoxicated by your touch Its a sweet, sweet rush I'm in love with your kiss You're the one that I trust the most You changed me Everything, I love everything you are. Close
Tributes and Condolences
STEVE WAKLIN IN THE GATES OF HEAVEN GOD BLESS YOU STEVE 
Darlene! I know your birthday will not be the same without your wonderful husband. Please rest assured in knowing he is watching over you and your family. I wish all the Angel families could be together with you tomorrow to celebrate your birthday. I will have to be happy with giving you a "cyber" gift. Please know that Estevan, you and your family are all in my prayers. HUGS to all of you!
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